Hello all I just want to take some time to share something with you. I really have not been one to share personal things with you but in an effort to expand my reader base. After 2 years we finally know that my youngest has Lupus and suffers from Migraines really bad. This explains why she lost my grandson and almost lost her life Christmas Eve of 2009. It has been a hard road but the worse part has been watching her with her best girlfriends who are getting married and having babies and now she is talking about her baby like he is still here. This is a hard thing to watch and try to support her in. The biggest issue for me has been trying to keep up with the cost of her medical expenses ie. tests, medications, and Dr. visits. I work in healthcare and can't afford the family plan as it would take mostly half of my income which would leave us in a space of nothing to take care of anything else.
She has tried to work but has lost both jobs due to complications of the illness so we have prayed and now are looking to God making a way to provide for her needs. For some you would say that you need to get the insurance for others you can understand my plight and for others you are indifferent and that is okay. I have dealt with my oldest daughter having JRA Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis since she was 12 yrs old and finding that none of the medications did anything for her but kept her sleepy and unable to function to make it through a school day. I look at her now in college active and still in pain with bad flare ups but God gives her strength to make it through.
As I am writing more I am wondering why am I sharing all of this? But as a Mom who has been a single lady most of there growing up years I have had to be strong and give them courage to make it through even when it was dark and gloomy for me. Life doesn't always give us what we want but it definitely gives us a chance daily to make the best of what we do have and for my family I strive to provide that daily. There may not be money all the time but there is love and encouragement, we may not be able to go on that trip we had talked about last year but we are still here and can enjoy our time in some other way. It's not the big things it's the small things that will make long lasting memories for us. With that being said I have to end this to get us to church. So be blessed and not stressed make it through this day and God will take care of the rest.